The first in a new "Inspiration" series
Have you ever had the experience of knowing you're upset with someone and then discovering that you're actually enjoying the experience (in a perverse kind of way, lol) ?
I used to think that I didn't have any control over my emotions...I couldn't help feeling hurt or upset if someone had "hurt" me. Holding a victim mentality let's us get a good righteous "mad" on. We have the "poor me/bad you" conversation" in our head and usually don't realize that we're feeding on it. It feels good to be angry, it feels good to feel righteous, it feels good to tell your story....over and over and over. Well, for awhile anyway!
I've done this less and less in recent years so that now it just feels completely uncomfortable and unfamiliar but last week I had a little reminder that I'm not completely of the hook yet! While I was driving, someone cut me off and I felt myself getting outrageously indignant. I started the conversation in my head that I would have with this person and then stopped and told myself to let it go. "You don't need to do this anymore Kate. You know how to let it go and it feels so much better when you do". I was surprised when I realized that I didn't want to...I wasn't ready yet. I was actually enjoying the rush. I was getting a lot of satisfaction out of my anger and indignation.
I was feeding off it.
I laughed when I realized what I was doing and was able to let it go then. But I wondered.
How many people respond like this to situations but don't realize they can let it go...don't want to let it go. There's a strange satisfaction in gnawing this bone till it's bare and spare and then continuing to hold on to it.
Abraham-Hicks says there's absolutely nothing more important than feeling good. We can't create anything...not healthy, happy relationships or abundance...unless we're feeling good. Feeling good opens us up to seeing, understanding and appreciating the beauty of who we truly are and the beauty of those around us. With that knowing, possibilities abound.
Can we consciously choose to let go of painful/angry thoughts? Thoughts that lead us away from feeling good? Absolutely! Even in times of crisis. It involves accepting full responsibility for our own "feeling good". There are so many tools available to help us with the process and different things work for different people. I used a process called ZPoint for Personal Peace for over a year on an almost continual basis! I still use it, but just occasionally now when something pops up that begins to upset or worry me.
I wonder why "letting go" is so difficult when it sounds so easy!
I created the piece above to print out and have as a visual reminder for myself...to let go of all that holds me back from living my life to it's fullest potential. We don't have to be more or become better than we are now; we just need to let go and relax into the fullness of our own beauty and grace)
