Hello dear friends...I've never, in all seven years that I've been blogging, been away from here for this long. It's a bit shocking to me and yet my mind, my heart and even my hands have been occupied with other things.
I've been home for a few days now and am settling into the "home" routine. It feels good to be here after almost 3 months away, but oh, what a happy holiday I had! So much feels new for me in my life right now and that's always hard to put into words but I would (attempt to) describe it as a feeling of clarity and sense of presence. I feel more present...more attentive...to myself.
My mantra these days is "step by step". I'm (finally) understanding that I can only live one moment at a time. I always knew the "brainiac" version of that but now it's a knowing in my heart which shows up as living the truth of it. Coming from that perspective, there's no overwhelm and nothing seems to be too much to deal with.
It's a very good place to be!
The entrance to our bungalow in San Pancho. This feels like a perfect analagy to me...a doorway to living life in a new way.
I've been continuing along with the painting I started in Ajijic. I started with random lines and shapes and moved onward from the original "marks". It looks very different from start to finish but it was an evolution...I had no concept of what it would be from the beginning...it just evolved. Its been painted over and then painted over some more and will likely have still more work done with it.
Interestingly, since coming home and looking at it from here, I can see that I unconciously painted a portal/doorway into it that reflects the doorway above (even the colour) and I hadn't noticed that before. It's not finished yet...there's still more that wants to be here! (I seem to be really drawn to seed pods and botanicals right now).
After noticing the "doorway" in the painting, I looked up some of the "meanings" of other elements in the painting...
red = fire/earth energy = grounded
blue = water/the unconscious and spirituality, truth
lotus flower= with its roots in the mud, the lotus rises through the murky water to blossom clean and bright, symbolizing purity, resurrection and the enlightened being who emerges undefiled from the chaos and illusion of the world. (I love painting the lotus!)
seed pods = fertility. A pod contains multiple seeds which have gone out in the world to rebirth and repopulate and this could have many meanings...the birthings of thoughts and ideas, creativity...even love.
I also signed up for a video project last month through Skillshare, called Muse: A Video Portrait Workshop. The class teaches the basics of how to make a short (5 min) video of your "muse"...someone or something that inspires you. I completed the filming in Mexico and am putting it all together now, so more on that in a later post. Although the learning curve for this is slowing me down, I'm having a blast with it!!
And I've also been continuing on with the graphics that I'm doing for Veronica Torres/Eloheim. This is a wonderful process for me to go through as I focus on the words of each quote as I'm working on them and by the time I'm finished, it feels like the words have entered my heart and become so much more meaningful than if I just read them. I often work on them while I'm lying in bed in the evening and it feels like a lovely way to end my day as I'm drifting off to sleep.
I'll leave you with a very short video...taken at sunset just before we left San Pancho. Sunset was the main event of the day and everyone heads to the beach to gather and often cheer and clap, as the sun disapears once again.
Sending hugs and blowing kisses to each and every one of you!